And so we smile

Friday, January 20, 2006

OBS didn't make me realize, but reminded me that:
It's tough looking at my rashes, cuts, bruises, bites and resisting the scary spine-chilling feeling.
It's tough not being critical, and accepting/ loving every one as they are.
It's tough knowing I'm going to have/ take juniors, and having to face all the pressure about pushing/ moving myself and others along.
It's tough facing familiar yet distant faces; the irony of one divided family.
And yet I'm going to conquer them well and pull ourselves together(:

Maybe I still don't understand why people want to get sth just for the sake of getting sth, maybe I do, just that I don't want to know how ppl can get along not feeling for the responsibilities/ connections below that sth, if I'm not seeing wrongly. "You cannot love or hate sth about another person unless it reflects sth you love or hate about yourself"-from The Rules For Being Human

I'm sorry I may sound incoherent, but it makes sense to me now haha. Um after-effects of still floating on the sea maybe?