Tuesday, January 03, 2006
I figured out what I'm really losing now is respect and sensibility. Respect for others when they're speaking, respect for myself, and I'm not thinking as much as I used to. (yeps I need to find the balance between extroversion and introversion) In any case, I need to make more sensible talk, rather than crappy nonsense.
Haha it's weird, and funny, how I'm so easily skewed by my environment, by the presence of any role model/ respected figure? Reminds me of primary school when we had all this mo2 fan4 sheng1 story. Uh so do we mimick after our role models, in terms of actions and/or thinking, or do we just take them for reference to check our behaviour.
Hm it sounded wrong when I said the words "I'll let you go first", and when I thought about it, it really was wrong. An unintended undertone I guess? And I'm really sorry to the person I said that to (you probably should know who you are). Sigh to my manner of expression, in fact I really don't know what to feel.
P.S. My grandma can't walk now (and is feeling down abt it) cos the operation costs a bomb, and I don't know whether the low success rate thing is true or if it's my mother's white lie. So my new year resolution is to learn Hokkien, and yeps my sis and I have decided to make a cheer up card in the mean time. Bless us.
I think I like my class haha up till now, and hopefully we'll like our class more and more through our two years together. 302'06 (:
