Friday, September 01, 2006
It's painful to have stepped on sb else's toes before. Hm once bitten, twice shy? It's painful because one can never trust how revengeful women can be after being hurt. It's painful because you know people sometimes rely on hearsays rather than their own logic and experiences to pass judgements. In essence I don't know how to respond appropriately. :/
Was reading their blog, and their comment on their blog. My instantaneous response was bitter, thought they should be prepared to get a scolding from us for disrespect.. Until I recalled what sb said abt us being hated by others because we are not able to talk nicely to those below us even after the strict discipline practices, unlike others. Started thinking a little more logically, and I realized I probably don't even know what role I'm supposed to take on. Reminds me of SS how I've failed to even mark my boundaries, although I'd like to be defined by my behavioural patterns in my social surroundings, or social identity.
It's a wonder how I haven't been thinking seriously about life since dropping lit last year. Haha I seem to be avoiding passages of words and poems now, rather focussing on the realities of life; going with the flow of society's practicalities. Implement system A, Problem-solving B, Plan C hah maybe things will work this way? But if we never go down to the strings and roots that tug at people's emotions, I guess things will never work out as perfectly. Haha ironically putting emotion in this way actually equivates it to being part of achieving a master practical goal -- building relationships.
Tolerance, Sensitivity, Humility. Think I have much to improve, but I think the practical ideal goal approach still works best for me (:
Happy teacher's day (also dedicated to my mother) !
(and sorry for such a schizo blog post haha)
