And so we smile

Friday, October 06, 2006

Niceness isn't everything.
Sometimes, discipline barriers just make the whole system more meaningful and interesting. Missed the times when it was so much hard work put into practising just to earn a grin or smile from seniors. I wish the word nice will just disappear from our new system, and be replaced by respect, fear, gratitude, and subtle love and care. Hate the feeling of real motivation coming back only when I see my leaps paper and recall all the toil and sweat, tears and hope.
Niceness (sometimes) belongs to a hedonistic egoist, perhaps a person who selfishly tries to clean his/ her heart of evil, and elevate one's status by becoming an altruistic person.
To contain one's stature even if you desperately want to offer a hug, to remain distant yet respectable.
That's true greatness.

tian1 xia4 wu2 bu2 san4 zhi1 yan2 xi2
Hate the helplessness of seeing good things slipping through one's fingers, and being lost with time.
Haha one end needs to open up, whilst the other end needs to be closed, how ironic.