And so we smile

Sunday, April 15, 2007

This is from my diary, written two years ago.

"We didn't get into presentation... Our greatgranddirects' wish is still unfulfilled. I must force myself to practise harder, 2 years down the road... RGSSB conquers!
May these memories of my 1st SYF last forever."

Harsh cold reality.

The stone cast started chipping off when they came back and comforted us, and wrote somewhere that they are still proud of us. Thank you for showering us that unwavering power of love and shelter. Thank you for bringing alive the feeling off loving the band freely and wholeheartedly (without being criticized and stopped by others for being a psychic).

We've let you down, indeed. I'm sorry I never found the way to overcome the barriers, and never could put in my real best whilst trying to go around the barriers. Determinism? I don't know, but I can't find another explanation for the stone cast.

Perhaps one day, dreams will come true, and I'll come back to see the entire band putting in a strong, true, pure unweathered heart into the highest goal for SYF. One day I'll come back to see eyes gleaming with desire again.

And I hope that one day will be in 2009.
Dearest directs, I hope you mean it when you say you want to get back that gwh. I hope you say it with conviction, because every single part of your heart feels for it. I have faith in yall to pull together everyone and fight to climb back, because you are OUR directs.

And to my junior, keep trying keep going. Nobody is going to stop you if you tell yourself you can't stop. Do nothing but your best and I'll come back to see you loving the band, dreaming for the band, putting in effort for the band, much much more than I could or did. You can do it, and we'll be behind you all the way (:

RGSSB.
You'll always be alive in our hearts and minds.

I love you batch07.
Nothing beats going through everything together (:
Thank you Mr Oura (:
And thank you to the other batches (i seriously mean this) that went for in for syf together with us. We know and appreciate your heart and effort, no matter the size.

Oh yes and may we please lend our counting god to rimb tmr haha >< All the best and don't let him down yea!

(I wonder if anybody will read this entry really since my blog has been left alone for really quite sometime (haha what an understatement), but to the gods up there if you're listening, my deepest wish is for those barriers to disappear, and be replaced by support and positive pressure, so that rgssb can really concentrate and focus on our dreams, and not get caught up in the same spot over again. Thank you)

PS Happy bee(re)lated birthday GL! :D